windy, sunny day: April 2014

How are you?

by Wahy - 2:35 AM

I was thinking, when someone ask "How are you?" to me, I will be like "Whoa! Do you really want to hear my crap? Nah, I don't think so. I'll just say "I am fine" then." Also for some reasons I just can't say "Hey there, I am not fine and I need a lot of hugs because I am about to cry like a baby." It feel weird.

Well, I have this experience. I trusted this person. When I was down I told him how I really was. I thought he'd always be with me and support me. But reality bites. He got tired and started fading away. At that point I believed, even my dearest one would get sick of my crap stories. So I need to stop telling people about my crap. It's sad knowing they're tired caring about me. Then here I am, do not know what to do, where to go, or whom to trust.

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What will you choose?

by Wahy - 1:42 AM

Have you ever wonder how beautiful the day sky is?
in blue or grey
Have you ever wonder how beautiful the night sky is?
with or without stars
Have you ever wonder how beautiful rain is?
when the water falls onto the leaves

Lately, I just noticed how beautiful my world is
There are many ugly things too of course
it depends on how you want to see the world
on the beautiful side or the ugly side

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Now Listening To

by Wahy - 10:10 PM

Lily Allen Somewhere Only We Know originally by Keane

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting tired and I need someone to rely on

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything,
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know
Somewhere only we know

Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need someone to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
'Cause this could be the end of everything,
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?

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Love is Always New

by Wahy - 11:47 PM

"But love is always new. Regardless of whether we love once, twice, or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand-new situation. Love can cosign us to hell or to paradise, but it always takes us somewhere. We simply have to accept it, because it is what nourishes our existence. If we reject it, we die of hunger, because we lack the courage to stretch out a hand and pluck the fruit from the branches of the tree of life. We have to take love where we find it, even if that means hours, days, weeks of disappointment and sadness.

The moment we begin to seek love, love begins to seek us. And to save us."

― Paulo Coelho, By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept

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Gunung Api Purba Nglanggeran

by Wahy - 11:33 PM

Last weekend, boyfriend and I went camping at Gunung Api Purba Nglanggeran. We went there with some of his friends, Apis, Ayu, Ulya, and Dimar. It made my weekend perfect! I still can’t get over it.

We started hiking around 6 p.m. It was drizzle and dark. It took around 2 hours to reach the camping ground. After building the tent and filling out tummy with home-made-cooked-food (Yes, we didn’t make instant food, thank you boyfriend, Ayu and Ulya!), we went up to the higher ground to see the city from above. Since we weren’t on the top of the mountain, the view wasn’t quite good. Some trees were on our sight, the sky wasn’t so clear. We couldn’t find any stars in it, even the moon hid behind the clouds. Then we back to the camp. The girls decided to sleep early and the boys still up doing their thing, making coffee, checking the tent, listening to the radio.

After a while, boyfriend and I hung out on hammock which Apis brought. It was really comfortable. We enjoyed the rest of the night. Watching into the darkness, feeling the breeze in our feet. I could say it was one of the best nights we have ever spent together. We talked about everything, getting to know each other more. I finally couldn’t hold my eyes open again, so I decided to sleep.

In the morning, we went to the top of the mountain. Gawd! It was amazing!!! I could have stayed there for hours. I couldn’t find words to describe how amazing it was.

Hiking + Camping = Checked !

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See You When I See You!

by Wahy - 1:01 AM

I finally got the chance to introduce you to my mother. I remember how happy she was. When I walked into her room, she gave me a big smile and came to me giving me hug. You came inside after me, then I introduced you to my mother.

"Mom it's Adi my boyfriend", I said.

"He's great dek*, he's great", she said.

I was so happy at that time, even right now I am still happy. For some uncertain reasons we didn't talk too much, even though I had loads of stories I wanted to share with her, just like the old times.

I waited while you're praying. I felt like that was my last chance to get a hug form you, since I didn't know when we'd meet again. Sadly, before I got the chance to hug you, I woke up.

That Saturday-morning-dream really made my day! and my weekend!

See you when I see you in another dream ma!

*p.s. My family calls me adek or dek. it's a term for the younger.