Some people are born with tornadoes in their lives, but constellations
in their eyes. Other people are born with stars at their feet, but their
souls are lost at sea.
I'm not gonna fight for you. I'm gonna miss you like hell. Miss our
sleepovers. Our late night discussions as we snuggled. You pulling me
close to you. I'll miss the nights as we laid there hugging, stealing
kisses in the darkness. So innocent and pure. I love you. More then you
know. And yet I hate you for doing this to me. Putting me in a position
of loving someone I'm not supposed to love. I'm not supposed to want.
You are no good for me. I keep telling myself that. I repeat it in my
head hoping I convince my heart. I don’t want to loose you. It hurts you
as much as it hurts me. I could hear it in your voice that night. You
meant what you said. I don’t want you to ever stop loving me. It seems
only yesterday we were dorks hooking up in my room. You introduced me to
a whole new world. You grabbed my heart. I didn’t know it then. I'm
going to miss your embrace. Your cologne. Running my fingers through
your hair. I love you.
"But love is always new. Regardless of whether we love once, twice, or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand-new situation. Love can cosign us to hell or to paradise, but it always takes us somewhere. We simply have to accept it, because it is what nourishes our existence. If we reject it, we die of hunger, because we lack the courage to stretch out a hand and pluck the fruit from the branches of the tree of life. We have to take love where we find it, even if that means hours, days, weeks of disappointment and sadness.
The moment we begin to seek love, love begins to seek us. And to save us."
― Paulo Coelho, By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept