Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Chocolate Chip Cookies


- 1       cup butter (softened)
- 3/4    cup brown sugar
- 1/8    tsp salt
- 1/4    cup white sugar
- 1        tsp vanilla extract
- 2        eggs
- 1        package (3,5 ounce) instant vanilla pudding mix
- 2 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
- 1        tsp baking soda
- 2        cups semisweet chocolate chips
- 1        cup chopped walnuts (optional)

How To:
1. Preheat oven to 175 C. Sift together the flour and baking soda. Set aside.
2. In a large bowl, cream together the butter, brown sugar & white sugar. Beat in the instant pudding, mix until blended. Stir in the eggs & vanilla. Finally, stir in the chocolate chip & nuts.
3. Drop by spoonful onto baking sheet. Bake for 10-12 minutes or until lightly browned.

p.s. I let my cookie dough sit in the refrigerator for an hour or so.

Wednesday, June 17, 2015


I guess that song is about when you're in a relationship and it's going really well and you're really happy and maybe you have given up parts of yourself. To fall in love and be in a relationship for a long time is like giving a lot of parts of you away because the relationship becomes more important than you as individuals. It's a bit of a tricky balance. I think everyone in a relationship needs to know not to forget themselves..." (from Bjรถrk's interview by David Hemingway).

She also explained how the song relates to the hiding of an aggressive part of oneself from a lover.

Basically, 'Hyper-ballad' is about having this kind of bag going on and three years have passed and you're not high anymore. You have to make an effort consciously and nature's not helping you anymore. So you wake up early in the morning and you sneak outside and you do something horrible and destructive, break whatever you can find, watch a horrible film, read a bit of William Burroughs, something really gross and come home and be like, "Hi honey, how are you?".

Tuesday, June 16, 2015


sometimes it's not the wrong person
but wrong interactions

-Kak Ipang, 2015

Monday, June 15, 2015

New Chapter

"Aku minta maaf"
"What took you so long?"
And just like that.. Another new chapter

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

I'm gonna miss you

 I'm not gonna fight for you. I'm gonna miss you like hell. Miss our sleepovers. Our late night discussions as we snuggled. You pulling me close to you. I'll miss the nights as we laid there hugging, stealing kisses in the darkness. So innocent and pure. I love you. More then you know. And yet I hate you for doing this to me. Putting me in a position of loving someone I'm not supposed to love. I'm not supposed to want. You are no good for me. I keep telling myself that. I repeat it in my head hoping I convince my heart. I don’t want to loose you. It hurts you as much as it hurts me. I could hear it in your voice that night. You meant what you said. I don’t want you to ever stop loving me. It seems only yesterday we were dorks hooking up in my room. You introduced me to a whole new world. You grabbed my heart. I didn’t know it then. I'm going to miss your embrace. Your cologne. Running my fingers through your hair. I love you.